Sunday, July 30, 2006

oh wells. julie told me john wanted me to update my blog. this opening sentence was really screwed until i re-read it. haha. john's name was intially spelt wrong, was tempted to leave it like that just to poke fun at him. so i shall just blog before i go and do qt. i m motivated for math man. heh. shall at least pia up to qn 7 before i sleep.

anyway. i have to say. at first its kinda weird seeing ur best fren get manifested. oh wells. u come to terms with it soon enough. God is great haha!

i think today was a fantastic service la. i dunno. maybe because our cell group meeting having just W346 again gives sort of that closeness during cell. first time i felt so spiritually charged up during cell. not like i never felt it when 278 was around, but that feeling usually faded after cell. when sis yating touched me my head, it just felt great la, cant remember much about her pray, except she asked God to give me something special, heh, so i m just hoping for that. but the spirit really intensified at that point of time. heh. this time the conviction stayed and i came to church today ready to praise and worship.

seriously man. i gotta siam the fear factor. i dunno why, fear just overtakes me over the smallest things. can u imagine, its like hallo. ur fren is the one hu manifested and u actually feel more freaked den her. i mean like i m like on the outside haha hehe orh ok cool, but sometimes in my mind, in my heart, just starts to think and feel scared and stuff like that. haha. cant help it one.

den its like today i dunno la. thru the whole service my heart felt weird, its like i either felt burdened or there was a stirring inside of it. and i still feel it now. oh wells.

just kinda wondered heh. why never come out leh. but over the last weeks, its like even thou the same sin came once in awhile, but it felt different, as in like, this time the hold over me felt weaker den last time. and the thoughts came less, it was more of just the act itself. maybe that was why nothing much happened to me.

but den again, i wouldnt know.

that verse in 2 tim about not having a spirit of fear but of power and of love and of a sound mind keeps coming to my head. heh. as well as the one about asking seek and knocking. must have some purpose. haha.

hope i have a good week. promos revision starts on tues. sc got loads of stuff. homework... heh. but i know i ll pull thru. anyway. thank You Father for such a great day. i mean like i didnt get to experience it, but to see people manifest right in front of me is really an eye opener. heh. more to come i hope.

sorry my sentences in this blog are like so no link or the link gets broken and reformed 2-3 sentences later, i kept adding stuff here and there. apologies if its hard to understand.

anyway. gotta go. tata!

|cowpoo| 10:00 PM|

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